your hand in mine.

it doesn't take confidence
it takes knowing what you want
and maybe in knowing what you want
you gain confidence.

the bitterness comes from being passive.
the sweetness from gaining what you long for
or in losing it.. whichever it may be..
both are outcomes of desire -
whatever the result, at least the dream was wanted.
at least it was not an object of cruel indifference
or didn't become the victim of passivity
to lay like dust on the shelf of my memory

it never did anyone any harm to ask
so
i am asking.
the worst thing that could happen is the answer is no
i can deal with that
at least i asked
at least i wanted
in asking there is that
which makes me alive.
there is a relationship with You.

Yeshua.
You who know me better than any other
will ever know me...
You who knows what is best.
i trust You
and as David said,
I hope in Your unfailing love..