before and after

There is love where giants hide
In the middle of the room, in the middle of my heart
And the night time speaks a sorrowful song
Of things broken, of joy unshaken.

I was there, face to face. I will never forget that moment
The coldness seeped in through the bottom of my toes
Numbing to the lungs. The frost slipped out of my mouth
Becoming the tears I couldn't reveal...
after all this time..

Do you hear the noise in my heart
Pounding so violently at the thought of this
I am so disappointed with the world.
Twisted innocence
Tainted love
All the tortured memories.

I watch them as they go to Your hands: my comfort
Let the giants sink beneath the waves...
Let me watch them drown and choke:
For they have tried to strangle the life from me..

Thoughtlessly - indifferently.. they have inflicted their pain
Their cruelty was my comfort before I met You
When I finally looked into Your eyes Jesus..
All I could see was the truth..
It was You

You have led me tenderly.. purposefully..
I know You will never leave.
You have burned my heart with Your promises..
Let me feel the fire of Your truth, the hope of Your restoration.
The permanence of Your love...

Beauty was restored the moment You spoke my name
It was You who held me through the nights so full of tears.
It was You who shook the foundations of my frame
It was You, who carried this cross for me

You have awoken my heart
Your hands have healed my scars and clothed my body
Even now You enfold my heart
How can brokenness mean this much to You?

That You would care enough to stay
To see beauty restored and life flow through me
I don't understand Your goodness
There is nothing else for me... all I want is You.

I am drawn to You, in love: and it sets me free.