breaking apart

we think we know it
we think we've found the essence
but we've only just begun

when i say i love You
what does that even mean?
would you never require me to show You?
my skin unscathed... my heart far from You
in my eyes - the absence of water

i am here and i am listening
oftentimes pensive, face down
were i younger i would have told myself
the worth of this

time is precious
this time with You
only now my heart awakens
to this light

here i am!
can You not see me?
what words would turn your ears?
if i plead, will You listen?

mingled with the things of the world
i've turned my thoughts away
but here i am again
listening.. watching.. waiting
pleading

Father, be mine...

no matter how close
the yearning never ceases
there is something in the longing
that needs You closer, dearer to me

than yesterday..

today...

... always:

i can never get enough of You - how can this be?
it takes the very breath from my chest
it takes my mind up
filling my consciousness with nothing but You.

as You look upon my naked heart
your gaze brings fire
i cannot look at You
You are holy..
and i am dust..
grass.. sand..

i flourish in Your house
You tend to me so carefully
i throw myself on You, Jesus
breaking apart willingly

every moment.. a journey
even now, i am aware of my selfishness
drowning
in brokenness

but it is necessary
for i am Yours
every mystical place in my heart
is open

break me until i look like You

shine Your light
shine Your light

... Your hands...
... Your feet...
... Your face...
... Your blood...

drawing me in
pulling me closer
passionate and true,
lover, Savior, redeemer - friend!

exposing the real
unforsakeable, tangible
Spirit
transforming my life

tears cannot convey the depth of this love
it is painful to look at You..

Your beauty breaks my heart.