atonement

God, are we willing to give up our walls? All of our pathetic self-protection and self-defense? I feel the resistance and it makes me ache. What are we waiting for? WHO? When? Would this be easier if all the circumstances were perfect? There is no right person or people to deal with the issues of our hearts. The strength of men is not strong enough to tear down these walls and turn ashes to beauty. Our war is for You to fight. Our issues can only be resolved in Your healing hands. If we want the fullness of all You have - we must face what You've shown us, with eyes full of truth, hearts full of faith and hands full of love. Are we willing to take all we have and surrender it to the light? Are we willing to run to You when everyone else is turning to distractions - will we turn to You? The world watches: they stand in their strength with their hearts of stone, mocking brokenness I can't escape. I can only throw myself on all that You are. I haven't the slightest hope - whom have I but You? Who is like You, God? Who is like You?

I am longing for You.. I can't escape longing for You: the depth and breadth of which I scarcely know. To know You care for me - You are never disappointed, never hopeless.. how is it possible for Your love to break my heart with such perfection and determination? How can the healing You give heal me more, the more broken I become? Your strength, made perfect in weakness.. How I want to be so close to Your heart God.. I don't fear brokenness. I only fear not knowing You... not having all of You.. You're yearning to show me... so help me find my way to where You are.. let me be close to Your heart.. stay.

You say I am Your garden: beautiful and free.. so be with me here Jesus, stay with me. Nothing I can say or do will atone for the things I have done: the dirty rags I have worn. I won't leave this place until You've touched my heart. I will storm every wall just to see You face to face: to have Your full attention. I won't leave until I know I have shown You everything.. So heal me and make me clean. I'm waiting for You to meet me here. I'll wait.